From the ashes

You might not always be successful in what you're doing
and that will be the time when you'd want to quit it.
The words "just quit" would've crossed your mind a billion times,
but you always held on, and now you're at the end of the string, still holding on
Its now, that everything matters the most.
Your decision, today will determine who you are
Your decision, today will make you who you will be
Your decision, today is you.

You're angry, you're tired, you're hurt,
There are dreams you had, that you see shattering now
But, today you forget that
your dreams have always had some fire in them
always burning, strong and bright
And, today that you see your dreams in ashes
its only important to understand that
it is a test, like it has always been
a test to see if you can bring back the fire
from the ashes, if you can arise a phoenix

A brighter, stronger, powerful phoenix, a new you.

Alert!

Betrayer and Dream Shatterer alert!

I was looking forward to all three of your stories (the 3 being: Jasleen, Alexa and Devika) but I have been betrayed. I have been shown a treat and not given it after I finished my trick.

Very well, then! Good Day to you all!

I DEPRESS!!!! D':

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY FAVOURITE <3

Oh God! How do you feel when the person you are absolutely in love with is moving away and you know you will probably not see them until after 100 years or something? I feel Horrible!! I  don't want to let go, I want to hold on to them like a 4 year old daughter holds on to her dad's legs when he is leaving the state for a business meeting. I cry until my eyes and my head hurts and I look like a Tomato. I sit in a corner staring into space, making a photo album in my mind. I DEPRESSS!!!! D":

That is exactly how I feel right not; and how I feel right now is exactly how I feel every time I read/watch/talk/see anything... ANYTHING related to Harry Potter Part 2! WHY WHY WHY!!! Why did you have to take them away!!!

Alert: I am not a huge, lunatic fan. I haven't read a single book (which I, oh-so-deeply regret, but the thing with me is I don't enjoy the book, if I've watched the movies and vice versa) BUT I have watched EVERY SINGLE MOVIE, A BILLION TIMES.

Yet, today, I found myself going through Harry potter posts on different blogs and I... I have a lump in my throat and I want to hug every single person who acted in those movies...from the janitor (who we never saw) to Dumbledore.

Man, Am I going to miss these series! Now I have no celebrity about who I can, proudly, tell my kids that "YO! I grew with those sexy, talented dogs!"

I hope all the people/actors related to those movies in anyway, stay successful and happy for ever and ever! <3

The trio hugging on the last day <3

Jasleen and Devika! :D

Jasleen:
Setting: a time long ago
Character: a dinosaur
Plot: a character must solve a problem

Devika:
I thought I'll jusy pick one for you?
Setting: a crowded supermarket
Character: a pilot
Plot: a character finds a treasure

Good luck! :D

YAY, ALEXA!

I was just about to comment on that post with "what a fail."

Thanks! and here it is:

Setting: A library
Character: A creature from another planet
Plot: a character finds a treasure

Good luck! Can't wait to see what you come up with!

Its other way around because its from my web cam. Just a proof that I didn't make it up :D

"I'd do anything to live my childhood again!"

Well, I have just the thing for you. I went to a school where my Dad works and I found one of the coolest and most entertaining things I have ever seen. A Story starters book!

My sister and I used this book as a game. This is how it works: there are 25 pages (in each section) in this book. 

By, each section, I mean there is one that says "Setting", second one says "Character" and the last one says "Plot." You'll come across different situations considering which page you flip each section on. 

How do we play? You'd choose a number between 1 and 25 for all three sections. For example, say you said: Setting 2, Character 4 and Plot 6...Then, I'd go on page 2, 4 and 6 respectively and let you know what you got. Then, you have around 2 to 3 days to make up a story using those three key things.

It could be a funny, tragic, pointless, short or extremely long story. Whatever you come up with will be treasured! Lets see how creative you guys get when you are TOLD to write :)

You can choose to do that or I have another book!

For this one, you choose a number between 1 to 200 and I'll give you a topic such as: "Write a story that begins with 'There I was on center stage, standing in the spotlight, when..."

If you have a kid around you, I'd love to have stories written by them. I asked my niece to write one ~ it'll be online soon!

ARE YOU READY FOR THIS CHALLENGE?! CAN YOU HANDLE IT?! 

say, yes!

Tell them, now before you lose them

My mom, my sister and I went to a grocery store, today. When my mom parked the car, I told them I didn't want to go inside (partly because I'm a lazy ass and also because I wouldn't have been able to stop myself from buying the delicious delicacies.) So, I sat in the car, focussed on texting my friends, unaware of my surroundings.

With hands carrying the grocery bags and eyes set on the car beside ours, my sister and my mom sat down in the car. "That lady in the car has been crying since we got here"my sister said.
"What?" I reacted, reflexively.
My mom clarified that she saw the old lady crying when she was getting off the car and when she came back.
I don't know why I was worried, but I threw out a "Haaww! Why, ma?" as my mom pulled the car out of the slot.
"What do you mean 'Why'? How would we know?" my sister said.
"Do you want to go ask her?" my mom pressed the breaks and looked at me.

I stared at her to check if she really meant it, since she rarely asks me to go upto a stranger and ask them how they are.

"Should I?"
My mom didn't answer me, she just stared into my eye. I took the seat belt off, got out of my car and walked towards the lady's car. I caught her looking at me, teary eyed, somewhat surprised and wondering.
When I stopped outside her door and looked at her, she hurriedly opened her door and passed me a weak smile.

"Are you okay, Aunty?" my voice concerned
"Uhm...yeah, yeah, I'm fine" she said, trying to stop herself from crying. I heard her murmur something
"Sorry?"
"Uhm...its just that..." her eyes welled up and she put her hand to her lips "just that a couple of months ago, my son died and..." her voice was quavering "and I think of him and..."
I wanted to hug her and try to make her feel better but instead, I caressed her back and told her that I was sorry and she should believe that he is in a better place.
"I hope so" she said, as I took her hands into mine.
"Don't worry...." I searched for words when she said, "No, no, its okay. I'm fine. Thank you, beta" she composed herself
"Please take care of yourself, aunty" and with that I left and got into my own car.

The moment I did, I saw my mom and the lady nod to each other.

"What happened?" My sister asked with the same concern I had
As I told them what happened, I saw my mother's eyes water up. We talked about how parents should never have to experience that. When I shared my thoughts that parents should never outlive their children, my mother looked at me and said, "There was a lady who was asked who she loves the most. you know what she said?"
My mom didn't let us answer, "she said I love my brother the most. She was asked why like most women she doesn't love her husband or her children more. She answered with 'I can always give birth to a  new baby, get a new husband but my mother is dead. I will never get another brother, So, regardless of how much he cares for me, I will never stop loving him.'"

I don't know know how much I agree with that since whether or not you get a new baby, your child is an individual. He is the person you are in love with. Your new baby will not be the same as your older children. So, losing them would be the same as losing someone you can not replace. It is not the relationship you grieve for, its the person.

That lady made me realize how important every single person in my life is. I don't know what kind of relationship she had with her son, but I do know that she misses him enough to not be able to stop crying when she is alone. Some say "People don't realize what they have until they lose it" and others say "People know what they have, they just don't think they'll lose it." I don't know which one is true but I know that when you lose someone, you'll regret saying/not saying things to them that you should have. So, if you haven't in a long time, tell the people you love, today that you can't afford to lose them.

***In my culture, Aunty is used as a synonym for Miss, Mam, etc. Beta is used to call someone child, sweety, etc"***

Perplexed over the mystery picture in my last post? Well, Do not fear for here is the answer:

IT IS MY CEILING!! :D! *can't believe you couldn't guess that*

oh look who watches Spongebob over writing their essay!

DISTRACTED

is what you and I are, right now. Don't you have something better to do?!

What is this?

English is going just fine, considering I have not received any assignments back. I took Academic writing, which (even when I was choosing it) I knew was going to be more boring than sitting on the toilet without a magazine or music. To my surprise, it is very interesting. Well, not the class per se, but the topic we are supposed to do Academic writing on. Topic = post 9/11. Unfortunately, this is not a history/religion/psychology/political something something class, so I never find myself in a discussion on Post 9/11, rather on how to write a summary, a research proposal, etc. Nevertheless, reading a package with statements from men "captured" during post 9/11 sweeps, Bush's announcements and other articles with theories on Orientalism and Moral Panic theory gets all the right reactions (such as "oh wow!", "awww", "ahahahahahahahahah!", "nooo, really!!", "god!", "what the hell does that word mean?") out of me. Sometimes, I tell myself I'll write like these people one day. Then, I start writing my blog and reality, like their words slaps me in the face. 

I have class twice a week, other days I drool over Nakatsu, other to other days I listen to music and sing along, other to other to other days I try to entertain myself (DO NOT think I have no social life! I have a nice, caring, crazy group of friends, some of whom have summer school, others are in California -- as I will be in August and few are just Lazy brats!) 

Okay, back to the point, so today was one of those "lets entertain myself" days. Heres what I did:

 If I looked at this, I'd say, "ENNH! Its alright. Nothing big!"

Until, I read what it actually is.-- I took four small, thin canvases, cut them into puzzle pieces and THEN I painted this on. I can hear some "smarty pants" going, "well why didn't you paint and then cut it into puzzle pieces" ... because, I used a cutter (a blade) that would've scratched the paint out. Trust me, I tried that...didn't work...for me, at least. So, what you see here, my friends is the solved puzzle.

Here is what it originally looked like!

And that is not the only thing I did, my room's door needs a make over. Right now, it has my name on it. I'm going to put these masks on it!

Yes, I did make those :D and I'm going to be proud of them, whether you like them or not! 

Oh no! The middle one is melting!! I'm going to go fix that

*Please, imagine me stand up, walk a catwalk to the other room while my hair flies in the wind, place the mask  on the floor, carefully as if hand modelling. Now imagine me look up, my eyes twinkling and say, "Want my number?".... OHKay! don't do that!!*

Although that blue and red one on the top right is my favourite, I think I sort of like this one, too:

Oh! Whats that I hear? Did you say, "Nice nails"?

Well, thank you! I did those myself, too!

Before you start criticizing them, note that I've never actually been to a nail spa to get my nails done and I have had no expert advice. So, indeed! I'm proud of these,too! 

Heres a better look:

 *Please, ignore my dirty hands that contradict my movie like scene when I went to fix the other mask. My fingers are dirty only because I did the masks before the nails. Perhaps, I should have washed?*

P.S. you better have watched the first four episodes!